I feel so scared and betrayed. I feel like I spent my whole childhood invisible and intangible screaming into the night with no one to notice.
I’m angry that since I was 6 years old, I’ve only ever been able to get off from rape fantasies. I’m angry that I’m asexual right now because the idea of…
There’s no doubt that abuse leaves such a large mark in our minds, it changes us, and completely destroys us in ways and even on days when we’re feeling at our strongest… anything can shake our thoughts and make us feel weak again. I am completely controlled by my past and live everyday with the aftermath of my physical, emotional, and sexual abuse and rape. I am so sorry that this happened to you and that you’re struggling. I hope that you can overcome some of your pain so that things will be easier for you in time. Stay strong, and if you ever want to talk, I’m here to listen.
